Forgiveness

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     I like to start by saying thank you for all the Support. It has been awhile since I have blogged. 

     I was thinking about "Forgiveness". That is a powerful word that will stay with you. I never saw or witnessed any forgiveness in my life. If there was any forgiving, it was done in private or never spoken of. If someone argues, fights or a disagreement, it stayed with you. Most times you avoided that person or just moved away. I was the one who always wanted everyone to get along and never argue about anything. Almost a perfect life. But of course, I knew that wasn't possible. So, I would just avoid forgiving and just stay away. Guess that was my way of not being reminded we have not settled anything yet. It was hard.  I made plenty of mistakes and I wasted a lot of time. Family is a big part of who I am. I love my family. 

      So life came had a partner and had a few children. The game changed after all that. My children did not need to see my behavior to forgiveness. That is the time I avoided my sisters, my cousins, my parents and almost all family members. Just so I did not have to feel that awkwardness or just that resentment. So I avoided family gatherings or parties. Life was not happy for me. My children got use to not being around family. I know that was my doing.

      As I grew older and made some changes, I started learning about myself again. Thinking about how I wanted my children to see family and to know where they come from. I had to literally write down what I wanted in life. There was so much I wanted for myself and my children. But family was very important to me. My great-grandmother and my grandmother at the time was very important to me. My mom was also a part of my life. But holding in so much for years was eating at me. Forgiving was the hardest thing to do for me.  I blamed my life for years. 

     My daughters started taking classes in College. They taught me how to forgive. I never heard it or it was never told to me the way both my daughters did. I was not bad to think about why I always thought that way. I am a stubborn person. Always thinking I am right and I know everything. You could not tell me something as simple as "Forgiveness". But my daughters know me and have a way of telling me about forgiving. My mind was blown.  I am very thankful for intelligent young women. 

  To be able to forgive you have to have an open heart. I have been able to forgive and move forward in life. It amazes me how much everything felt the same but different in a very good way. Education is a key part of forgiving. Wanting to learn about yourself and leaning about what forgiveness really is.

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