Bouncing Back

Gooood Day..

     I was thinking as my coffee warms my lips. The other day,  I talked to an old friend that put a thought in my mind. How trust is very important and fear keeps him from love. I totally understand where he's coming from.  I can look back on life thinking I will never trust anyone again. Or I will never fall for anyone again. I was betrayed, lied to, hurt massively and cried a lot. At the time it was pain and suffering that I was thinking was never going to end. But like I always calculated. 72 hours and you are okay to function again in the world. As long as they don't call you for hear from them. It was a hard time for me. I was working a full time job at the time, so that kinda kept my mind occupied. That was the time in my life I wanted to make myself busy. I started drawing out my designs for clothing portfolio. I started researching my business venture. I had a few friends at that time that I mentioned my idea to. I got so caught up in my thoughts, I had bigger fish to fry. My pain I was going through was still there and stung a little but I got over the big hump. Going through pain like that alone is so much more of a struggle. I eventually dated, but always held back. I was fearful of the pain I endured and I knew in my heart loving with an open heart was so much better than trying to act like I was in love. I wasn't happy. I am just saying all pain does end and you have to look out for yourself before anything else. I was not being me at the time. I got so tired of everything. I had to let my wall down and my heart open. I had to be true to actually feel all the best parts of falling in love. So I bettered myself and didn't look for love. I just kept busy and did what I needed to do. The pain eases with time. In the mean time you better yourself and get to know yourself again. And be who you really are. I am not saying it will be fun or a lot of ups and downs, but stay strong and positive and you will get over what ever pain you are going through. Have an open heart. Even to a friendship or any kind of relationship. Whether it's co-worker, family, friends, or a love relationship. It will get better. Thank you for reading. Thank you for all your support.  Lots of Love and Blessings to you all.