Path never crossed

Hi there...

      A man came into my life right after the 15 year relationship and I was so new to dating or even trying to get to know anyone at the time, I left him slip through my fingers. I was not looking for a relationship or anyone at the time. I was in the process of healing from the childrens' father. I was at work one day and a tall man came in sat at my desk and I could tell he was just staring at me while I typed in his name. I looked at him and he looked away. I thought that was very sweet. But my interested was not that high. I was not ready. I had my children to raise and dealing with endless feelings. Trying to take care of unfinished business. I look back today and think I was in no condition to be in any kind of relationship. The attention I got from him was something I never had. The way he held me, his touch, the long embrace we  shared and the closeness was amazing. But it was new and I was younger and I didn't know better. But I can't complain today. For a long time, he was all I thought about. I mentioned his name about once a day. He made me think I lost a love that I couldn't get back. As I grew and got to know myself better I eventually stopped talking about him and moved on. When you are just fresh out of a relationship you tend to get your fellings twisted. A lot of feelings and no where to go. So he was the first to give me attention and it was something I didn't know I was wanting. But it didn't last long. My unfinished business was still a big part of my life and the new guy didn't understand it. So I had to let him go. The feelings I had for the childrens' father was something that could never go away. It's been 11 years ago but those feelings are still there. I could only turn the page to move on with him. But every once in awhile I would go back and re-read that page. And I am just saying you can't get your needs and wants mixed up. That is something you grow and learn the difference. I often think about that guy but I just smile because he is just a chapter in my life and one day he will too learn the difference. I am a true romantic. All my stories end happily. I hope I put a smile on your face. It was just something I thought I would share. I am not saying don't have fun or just stay home. Just be wise on your choices. At the end we are not in control of our wrong turns or running those red lights. Thank you for reading and thank you for all the support. You make me want to tell my story. All based on a true story. Lots of Love and Blessings to all.