Beautiful Tongue

Yá'át'ééh and a Sweet Hello..

    I know I go missing but I will always return.. I just want to start by saying I hope everyone is doing well. My world has been turning strangely. But manageable.. I know I blogged briefly about how our words are strong and to be kind when we talk to people we love and care about. We get upset or disagree with people but we always have to step back and look at the big picture.. I know about 10 years ago, I would not let anything fly. But as I get older and are around people who show me love accept me for who I am, we are capable of changing.

     My great-grandmother always stressed to not say anything crazy to anyone. I agree with her and it is very important. I can say that today I am proud to say I have a beautiful tongue. I pray for family, people and others who do not think highly of me. I just think that is okay and I get up every morning and life keeps going. Daily Journaling, Yoga routine, my coffee or tea and work on my projects or what I need to do for the day. It is the first time in my life I can concentrate on myself. My mind goes to grand babies, my son and my daughters. Always have very good thoughts for them. Missing them is a daily occurrence.

     Having a beautiful tongue comes from within.. It starts with being aware, being accountable for whatever has happened and start the healing process. Whether it is traditional healing (ceremonies, prayers, smoking out home/yourself also going to a sweatlodge) The main point is for you to ground yourself. Remember who you are and where you come from. Some of you may not have been raised around traditionalism but we just need to start now. Everything that I wrote is about yourself. Healing from trauma that has been attached to you for years. Start small. Journaling, praying and even just meditation helps. Your health is very important. We are not getting today back. Once it is gone it is gone. Days feel like they are getting shorter. Making a change for yourself is a rewarding feeling. Start with one day and if you fail, get back up and start the next day..

     I endured so much before I knew that I was dealing with trauma. I sucked it up and raised my children as a single parent and not knowing I needing healing, I was always mad, a lot of aggression and bottled up anger. That was not healthy for myself and especially my children. I had to realize that I was not happy and not doing what I wanted. It took years and a lot of talks with my daughters. I was very privileged that they were taking college classes and educating themselves on mental health. I was intrigued to hear all about what they learned. Just hearing them and wanting to help me, made me think about everything. One thing I could not do was change the past and I had to make a change for my future and to make everything go as smoothly as possible. Learning to deal with trauma, setting some boundaries and letting some people go. I had to be selfish. Be forgiving and grateful.

     Having a beautiful tongue is learned. "Beauty comes from within" I was once told. And it is very true. If you feel like you are losing yourself then you pause and "catch your breath."  I hope you all enjoy my Blog today... Thank you - A'hééhée  Lots of Love and Blessing to you...