More than Me

Hello, Yá'át'ééh

Thank you for reading today. It is a quiet Sunday for me. Watching my granddaughter is such a joy for me. Almost 2 and it opens my memory to a time when my little babies were young. Working and trying to make ends meet was an obstacle that challenged me. My part in being in there life like I wanted was not possible. Working everyday, being a single parent income was a life I had. I had a lot of self reflection and sacrifices to make life for us to be happy. My daughters helped me so much and we all came together to make it work. Coming home at the end of the day was the best part of my life.

At this point, my little family had a plan. Spending time with each other as much as we could when I not working was a priority. Their father was not in the home but he spent some time with them when he was able. For me, it just was not enough. My children were very young and did not really notice time.

Raising my children was a great accomplishment for me. My priority was to be there for my children and have an open communication with them. Making sure that they knew I was on their side and they can talk to me about anything. I stressed to them that helping each as a family was very important. Of course, I had family but growing up it was not picture perfect. So I worked hard to have a great home for my little family. I am very ambitious so my older daughters heard all my ideas and my future plans. Making our home life a drama free sanctuary. I wanted my children to feel safe and comfortable at home. Yes, there were struggles on my part, but I overcame a big part of that part of my life. I tried to keep my children from drama or domestic situations but my choices at the time was not always the right ones. I have grown from that and I kept my focus on raising my children. We all have gone through a lot and have since moved forward.

I grew up around a lot of alcohol abuse. As far young as I can remember, alcohol has always been there. So, as I got older I saw more and more I truly felt that I did not want to be that way. I did not want a lifetime of regret on my shoulder from alcohol. I saw more that I should have. But I did manage to stay on the path of taking care of myself and staying sober. I educated and told stories about alcohol to my children. I wanted them to know the dangers and the addiction. I just trusted they would make the right choices and remember what I had told them.

Education was not a big part of my life but my children already knew about the importance in furthering your education. I am very proud of them, for who they are as young adults now.

My story is true and I only want the best for everyone. How my journey in life has not been a great one but my mission was to give my children what I lacked growing up. As they got older and experienced more of their own path, it has been educational for me. It is a good thing and learning and still growing.

I raised my children and my only thought is for my children to be better that I am..

Thank you. Ahé’hee for giving me time to read my Blog. Lots of Love and Blessings to you..